Hhhhmmm, healing is a bit of a misleading word here as it is defined as "the process of making or becoming sound or healthy again" and I'm not sure any of those things will fully happen again, at least not in my heart. I don't feel that I'm improving my Olivia-less life, but I do feel that I'm surviving it and some days are better than others.
I've always said "Sharing is caring" and I agree wholeheartedly with this.. By sharing about this hell I think I'm taking care of me and hopefully helping others take care of themselves and their loved ones who have lost a child. I feel that the more I talk and write about my daughter, the more real Olivia becomes to everyone who didn't get a chance to meet and hold her. So I do that everyday, I talk about her and make sure that people understand that having her present ever day helps me survive.
A quick but powerful THANK YOU to everyone that lit a candle for Olivia on Saturday and shared their pictures with us. You might not realise, but each time we received a new picture our hearts were happy because the world was celebrating our Chiquita, just as if they would had she gotten to stay. THANK YOU FOR HELPING US SURVIVE!